From your comments, you all seem to notice the happiness consuming me right now. It’s true. I’m happy! Happy happy happy! I do still have some pain (don’t read the next sentence if can’t handle TMI). My milk has arrived and makes my chest hurt like crazy. I also suffered a 2nd degree tear “down there” during delivery. Despite the pain, and the adjustment, things are so much better than I could have ever anticipated.
It could have something to do with Braedon being such a sweetheart of a baby. I have not had a single issue nursing him. He sleeps very well. He doesn’t fuss a ton.
It could have something to do with this being our second child. Knowing what to expect makes it feel a lot more manageable. We can figure out his needs and problem solve situations MUCH quicker than we did with a brand new baby M.
It could have something to do with being surrounded by such supportive family and friends. Having people show their love for you always feels good.
In reality, each of those things plays a very significant role in my chipper mood. Something else does as well. The blog.
After giving birth to Makenzie things were hard. Very hard. I teeter-tottered on borderline post-partum depression. I questioned if I was really ready to be a mom and if I had made some sort of massive error. I cried with thoughts that I had nothing left of me. I swung back and forth from extreme highs to very, very extreme lows. Things got better after a couple weeks, but I still felt a bit off and unlike myself.
Taking around 30-45 mins a couple times a day to sit, write, express myself, and put energy into something all my own truly helps. It helps me be a better mom. It helps me be a less emotional and crazy wife. It helps me reflect on the beauty of my life and the overabundance of blessings filling it right now. It helps me keep perspective and not to forget that I matter too. For that reason, I am forever thankful for this space and for you all. It helps more than you can imagine. I do it for me, but I also do it for my family. I do it for me, but I also do it for you. I do it because I love it and can really see the difference it makes. Thank goodness for FFF and its supporters is all I have to say!
Question of the Day – Do you have an activity you really make an effort to have time for yourself? How does it help you?