I forgot to mention this morning: catch up from the weekend here (Lessons from April) and here (Margarita Fun).

You may remember my rough morning and how that led me to just needing to take a chill pill. Luckily, I did find a few various ones to bring down my nerves, frustrations, and overdramatic tendencies. Even better is the fact that none of these chill pills have warnings for suicidal thoughts, insomnia, diarrhea, or heart arrhythmia. And your excitement from these chill pills won’t send you to the emergency room if the joy lasts for more than four hours like some pills caution. Take your pick of my chill pill wonders. Hurry before I patent them and sell them as $100/month prescriptions.

Chill Pill Option #1 – Girl Talk

I got a phone call from one of my best girlfriends. We were able to just sit and chat for an entire hour. We have been playing phone tag the last week or more and I was thrilled to catch up. I got to hear how well her baby girl is improving and provide some support on the early weeks of motherhood. She was able to commiserate with me on how much this week sucks in the trying to conceive calendars. And we just laughed and talked about any topic under the sun.

Chill Pill Option #2 – Sweat Session

Since I was breathless this morning from stress and not cardio, I knew I needed to get moving at some point today. Working out is always an instant help. It just feels good to sweat. An at home workout of Turbo Kick helped to remedy my angst. 55 minutes of kicking, punching, and shaking can help anything.

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Chill Pill Option #3 – Bloggie Mind Readers

I gotta say that it always amazes me how much blogging can help ease my struggles. I decided to relax by clicking through my Google Reader and was met with numerous messages on various blog posts that were just what I needed to read. Anna talked about how we are truly beautiful in ways that matter. Hallie & Sarah both discussed comparing themselves to previous fitter versions of themselves, which is something I can definitely relate to, and how we cannot allow it to bring us down and keep it from living our lives to the fullest now. Jessica brought up the importance of recognizing who we really are and that our identities in our fitness selves are not who we solely are. I needed that message because a lot of my frustration these days is feeling like I have lost a part of myself with not being the super fit/defined mom and athlete anymore. And my Bible verse of the day just topped it off - “Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”

Chill Pill Option #4 – Listening to Baby Laughs

Chill Pill Option #5 – Laughing at Your Baby

Need I say more???

Chill Pill Option #6 – Getting Lost in a Book

You all know I love to read. Getting sucked into a fun story helps cure my blues. You don’t have to think about what is ailing you. You can either pretend you are part of the exciting story. Or find peace that your life isn’t that bad. It’s a win-win situation.

Chill Pill Option #7 – Sharing the Love

I went to the post office to mail off some goodies. The Amazing Grass products to help Jess get in her veggies along with her fantastic cooking/baking and a care package to my awesome blogger pal Lisa.  You can’t help feeling good while doing kind things for others.

Chill Pill Option #8 – Just Don’t Care

When things look like this? Turn around. Choose ignorance for the moment and move on. Everyone will survive even without your super powers solving everything for a day. No, that isn't too bad...but it's when I took a picture.

Chill Pill Option #9 – Drink

Although margaritas sure would have been nice, I knew that the H2O would be a better fit. After all, a perfect cure to a “feel gross” day is to down the agua to help rid some of the bloat. Gulp!

Chill Pill Option #10 – Leave me a comment telling me your favorite way to decompress. I had to find a way to 10 somehow!

I’ve been told before that as positive as I tend to be, my world must be filled with rainbows and sunshine. Well, today it is storming. Both literally, and figuratively.

Have you ever had one of those days that just suck? From the moment you wake up nothing goes smoothly and you are in no physical/emotional/mental condition to handle the problems, no matter how minor, well? That has been my day and it isn’t even 11 o’clock yet.

Attractive, huh?

Well, I didn’t sleep well last night because of the storms that were rolling through and shaking our house with thunder. Not a huge deal, but definitely didn’t have me waking up on the right side of the bed this morning. When I did finally wake up, I could tell I was in a negative mood. I even wasn’t much in the mood for my prayer time. Yes, I still prayed but my heart wasn’t as connected to it as normal. I think it is normal to have those disconnected days, but they sure don’t help on days I really need some extra positivity. And this entire week is one I need extra positivity. Something about the week before I find out if this month is the month for finally getting pregnant gets me in a tizzy. Fluctuating between serious hope and a “yeah right I know it’s not yet” negativity make for an emotional rollercoaster this week every single month. Sprinkle some PMS in there and you got yourselves a party.

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While waiting on Makenzie to get up I was battling back and forth with whether or not to go to the gym. I didn’t really feel like heading out with her in torrential downpours, but I was also having an “I feel gross” day where I knew a quality spin class would leave me feeling better. Vanity and selfishness won out. I got ourselves out the door.

Lo and behold that was not the right decision. Pulling in to the gym parking lot, I was reaching over to do something with my bag and a spider came crawling out towards me from beneath it. Spiders, bees, and cockroaches are the three insects I just do not handle well. I freaked, jerked the wheel, and collided with the concrete median. Leaving my front tire extraordinarily flat and my rim looking like this:

I go into the gym and check M into the daycare so I can remedy the situation (aka call the hubs), but that is a no go. His phone is dead. Just flippin’ fantastic! Then I try to log into my email to send him a message telling him to call me. The gym computers aren’t working. Are you kidding me?!!!! Finally I get access to a computer that functions; reach my man; have him get short with me about calling AAA and managing to damage my wheel so much in a parking lot; don’t hear from him for 30 minutes all the time wondering what I’m going to do because I don’t have the AAA information to get them here. Turns out Peter left work to come help me, apologizing in the process…but he was redeemed immediately upon coming to care for me.

Now things are manageable. My car is driveable again. Even if I will look like I’m big pimping for a couple of days.

I will either go back to the gym this afternoon to make up the spin class or do a workout at home. I plan on curling up with a book for awhile after I publish this post because Peter is home and will be helping with M for the day.Plus, who wouldn’t feel calmer after eating one of these? Thank goodness for leftover goodies you get and don’t eat over the weekend. This mini (yes it’s mini despite the picture’s appearance) icing cookie was just what I needed. May not be as healthy as my typical yogurt, almonds, or bar snack…but it was the icing on the terrible awful why did this happen morning cake.