I can hardly believe September comes tomorrow. Isn’t that what always happens, though? You await something with pure excitement, then the day oh so suddenly comes knocking on your door and you panic with nervousness. Yep. That’s me.

A few weeks ago I shared how I felt pulled to begin the 30 Days of Self-Love on the blog and asked for your support. The outpouring of support overwhelmed me and literally brought some tears to my eyes. To this day, as people continue to show their interest and let me know they are “in”, I get giddy with hope with what will come. Amidst all that, however, are some questions and insecurities.

I worry that it won’t be all I hope and that my posts and the shared reflections will fall much too short of what you all look for. I don’t want to let my fabulous readers and supporters down. I want us all to gain something from this and the fear of failure permeates my emotions.

I wonder how best to go about some of the technical posting details. I have recently gotten into a groove with my 2 shorter posts a day. They fit in my schedule well and make it easier to sit down to write with one concept in mind to share, instead of a day’s worth of stuff to sort through and try to keep to a readable post. I know I want the 30 days posts separate of anything else and posted in the morning by 8 am for people to have available to start their days.

So, I’m torn. Do I keep my normal posting and simply add the 30 Days posts in? Or do I exchange a normal post for the 30 Days post? I don’t want to overwhelm you with 3 posts a day. I certainly want the focus to be on the 30 Days and its participation, but would be lying if I said it wouldn’t bother me to do normal posts and those not get read. The 30 Days post will be very short and sweet, simply to spark some reflection and then allow for a comment to affirm part of your reflection, so I would hope they wouldn’t be burdensome when added with other posting, but it still worries me. I feel really silly typing that but I would be lying if I didn’t.

The last concern I will share (so as not to get too long winded) goes back to the beginning. Is it prideful of me to desire this to reach many different people? Is it wrong to have hopes and dreams for this movement/challenge? Was I crazy to even try this?

I can’t seem to help myself! I can’t even begin to describe how flustered I am to bother myself with such thought processes, but they are there. I want so badly for this to provide a positive experience for each person that it hurts. I will have to do something difficult. Even with all the faith I have, I still face difficulties with simply sitting back and trusting. That’s all I can do. Pray over each post and that God guides me to a message that can touch each individual. Pray for it to help us all love ourselves more and have a place of positivity and support together. And let Him do His thing while I’m just along for the ride. Bring. It. On. Please join us, will ya?

• How do you honestly feel about the posting? Would it bother you with an additional post or affect your reading of the blog and/or participation in the 30 Days?
• What do you have the hardest time with when approaching something new and extremely important to you?

I hope to see you all tomorrow with the first post!

I had SUCH a great day! Nothing too amazing, but nice nonetheless. Thank you so much for the comments on my last post. Once again, please visit Faces of Beauty to support such a fabulous movement. I also couldn’t stop smiling from knowing September awaits just around the corner. All of you showing interest and looking forward to it as well puts me in a great mood as well. Thank you for that! 🙂

Another good part of the day involved restocking the kitchen and figuring out a new schedule that suits me much better. I thrive on routines and schedules. I don’t tie myself to them, but I do like having some sort of go-to plan to guide my week – with workouts, errands, blog/writing/tutoring/lesson planning/etc work. It helps me be more productive because I don’t have to take time deciding what to do each day. However, if my plan has to alter for some reason, I adjust accordingly because I keep things flexible. The set-up works well for me.

Today I switched things up by not going to the gym for spin in the morning and hitting up the grocery store instead. I avoided Monday morning spin, along with its bike thieves and overcrowdedness, and filled up our fridge and pantry.

I picked up the inevitable haul of produce, cage-free eggs, milk + almond milk, Kashi Honey Sunshine cereal, NEW! Hot & Spicy veggie sausages,  yogurts and cheeses, deli meat, a few canned goods, etc for our meals this week.

I also admit to picking up a couple guilty pleasures. Caffeine free Diet Coke, Skinny Cows, and a Lean Cuisine. I don’t feel bad having these on occasion. I have nothing to hide and I’ve already told you before how some days just call for a frozen pizza or some carbonation. Not every day but some days, yes!

I also did some restocking outside of the kitchen. I restocked my body with nutrients after a bunch of snacking on Oreo Balls and Veggie Bars Saturday and then having NO appetite whatsoever yesterday. I made a great lunch of a Cracked Pepper Turkey sandwich (with guac, baby bella mushrooms, tomato slices, turkey, and cheese) alongside a plum and some raspberries. And okay…one leftover Oreo truffle! 😀

The restocking theme continued by restocking my energy with a great Turbo Kick workout DVD. I was only able to workout 2 times last week, so it felt amazing to move my body. Now, time to restock my pockets! I have the first tutoring session of the school year tonight. Such easy money and I can do something I enjoy. Teaching without all the bureaucracy. Have a good night all!

• Do you enjoy schedules? I’m guessing most of you will say yes based on your comments about getting stressed when behind on thing. 😉 I feel you!
• What is something you love to do but working in it ruins it (or you fear could ruin it)? I really did love teaching Spanish, but the actual job killed it for me. It felt like I was being paid to go to meetings and keep up with paperwork, NOT teach.