I finally did something the other morning that I had anticipated for awhile.

That little blurb right there means I actually purchased my study material and testing package from the National Academy of Sports Medicine to get the ball rolling on me becoming certified in personal training.

HO-LY-COW!

After recently putting my dreams out there so solidly you would think this next step would come naturally. You would think nary a moment’s hesitation would come before hitting “Confirm Order” on that screen. Oh, ho. No no no, my friends.

I found every way imaginable to procrastinate on actually taking the first real progression in my goals. I masked under the guise of researching which program I planned to use for my certification, even after making the decision a long time before. I  kept questioning Peter on if he really wanted me to do this. I went back and forth over which package, materials, program, and support to choose within NASM.

I did all those things out of fear. Fear at spending a portion of our hard-earned savings. Fear over all the minute business details and logistics that will coincide with wanting to do online training and be my own boss. Fear wondering “do I really know this is a path God has for me”? Fear that no one will want to hire me. Fear.

I ended up hitting “Complete Order”. It took a lot, but I recalled a little word I had promised to embrace this year – trust. I dedicated myself to trusting in all ways – trusting my body, trusting God, trusting my heart, trusting my passions, and trusting that trusting all those things will bring my life such fulfillment and joy beyond my imagination. Whew, that’s a lot of trust. ;) 

I have these passions for a reason. I have these hopes for a reason. I can do this. And I will. Let the studying begin!!!

• What is the scariest thing you have done?