Self-Love Reflection: The Road Not Taken
Hello FFF readers! Nice to meet ya! My name is Carissa and my husband and I blog at Fit2Flex. Well, I blog…he consults! We are both certified personal trainers with a passion for healthy, active living and clean eating. I am also studying to become a registered dietitian, a race announcer, and a runner. Stop on by our blog for workouts, meal plans, fit tips, and recipes.
I have always loved the Robert Frost poem “The Road Not Taken”. So much so that’s there’s a plaque in my bathroom.
I love the part about the “road less traveled”. I try to remember that when I’m looking for the courage to make big decisions. However, about a year ago, I did something that’s clearly not written in Frost’s words. I turned around. I abandoned my road less traveled, turned around, and have found myself on a more peaceful, happier road.
Today I want to share a story and inspire you to maybe someday have the courage to turn around, start a new journey, or take a detour just for you.
Since I was in high school I wanted to be a sideline reporter. I wanted to be Erin Andrews WAY before Erin Andrews was cool. I studied in school; I interned; I was a radio/TV major in college; and I scored a gig with ESPN’s Wide World of Sports at 19.
I was traveling, I was working, and I was climbing the ladder. I even achieved my goal and did sideline reporting for several nationally televised college games. I was there, but I wasn’t happy.
I loved my job, but I wanted more. I wanted to be more involved. I wanted to help people. Not that asking a sweaty running back how he felt about that drive wasn’t helpful…but well..it was a short term “help”.
Around this time I became passionate about health and fitness and I found myself reading every fitness magazine and health book during my many travels. I met my husband, a personal trainer, and fitness took over.
I became a personal trainer too. But I was still traveling, still working. One foot on the field and one foot in the gym.
For two years I looked online at schools to become a registered dietitian. I would see the long list of pre-requisites that my arts degree didn’t have and I’d balk. Scared at all that work for “another “ degree. I’d email programs for dietetics and plan out how long it would take me to graduate, but then a big job would come along and I’d be right back to where I was. Busy, but not satisfied.
Finally, I made the decision. I started taking my science prerequisites while still working and in May 2011 I was a college junior all over again. At 26.
It felt weird to start over. It felt embarrassing. It felt like I had failed. I put years of work into a dream and I abandoned it. I couldn’t help feeling like I had done something wrong.
Going back to school was scary. Scary financially to take on student loans when previously I had none. Scary to tell my agents when they called that I couldn’t do gigs because I had an exam. Scary to not know if I had made the right choice.
In my first months of school I had a daily debate with myself, “Is this the right thing?” There were times I wanted to stop and just continue what I was doing because it was easier. But I had some huge cheerleaders. My husband and my friends. They told me that the best things in life you have to work for. And while school was hard and scary, they knew me, and it was where I belonged.
Today I’m thrilled with my decision. I still have about 19 more months until I can sit for my registered dietitian board exam, but I’m getting there. I’m driven; I’m focused; and I’m fulfilled. The path just feels easier when it’s the right one. For me the turning around, the starting over, the humility of saying that what I was doing wasn’t right…that was the road less traveled. And as Mr. Frost said, “that has made all the difference.”
Have you ever changed course for a more fulfilling path?