Sometimes I Wonder…

Posted: December 21, 2010 at 8:10 pm

Before I begin tonight’s post, I want to clarify something. In my “Body After Baby” post from earlier today, I did not intend for it to come across that I am not happy with my body now, or that I will not be fully happy with my body until I reach a certain point. I fully believe in the importance of appreciating and loving our bodies in all stages. I can (and do) have goals I want to work towards post-baby, but I promise to still love myself and my body in the process of working towards those goals as well. I would never want Faith, Fitness, Fun to represent anything less. Now, back to regularly scheduled programming!

Sometimes I wonder…why its so rare I get a haircut I love. I went this afternoon…and don’t care for it. It’s shorter and choppier than I wanted. Something about it just isn’t flattering. I’m hoping styling it myself will help some.


Sometimes I wonder…how the closer my due date gets, the more I wonder if I really want it to come soon. That mainly comes with the emotional side of knowing I only have a few more weeks just M and I together.


Sometimes I wonder…at what age will my precious M stop thinking I am the most amazing person out there. My heart melts every time she mimics me – like she did today, by “shaving” in the shower.

Sometimes I wonder…how I even managed to shave my legs. It was quite the feat!

Sometimes I wonder…how there can possibly be more room for baby B to grow. And how my belly has not picked up any stretch marks with either pregnancy.

Sometimes I wonder…if I just jinxed myself with that statement.

Sometimes I wonder…where the Blogger blogs come up with their word verifications. I had to type out “reballit” today. I definitely giggled.

Sometimes I wonder…how I would spend my free time if I never started FFF?


I do not wonder if I would miss the friendships, the creative outlet, the enjoyment of something as my own, etc. I know I would miss all of those things. Which is why I don’t plan on going anywhere for a long, long time.

Sometimes I wonder…do the friends and family who I know “in real life” (for lack of a better term) ever get weirded out reading all of my ramblings? I know I share a lot of personal things. While I wouldn’t hide from those things, my past relationship with food or discussion of pregnancy hemorrhoids are not exactly common topics in our regular conversations.

Sometimes I wonder…why I let food control me for so long. The holidays are much more fun when I can happily accept delicious, home-baked cookies from my sister-in-law (thanks, Marie!) and have one without any need to “throw out my diet for the day because I screwed up”.


Sometimes I wonder…how Jess came up with such a cute blog post idea! Thanks for inspiring such a fun post, my friend!

  • What is something you wonder?
  • Do your friends/family who don’t have blogs read yours? Does that ever weird you out?

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46 Comments to “Sometimes I Wonder…”
  1. I wonder if it’s ok to count Christmas cookies as a legit food group? Just until Saturday maybe….? 😉
    My friends w/o blogs read mine, and it doesn’t weird me out- but it’s funny when I start to tell them something and they’ve already read about it! haha

  2. Dorry says:

    I think your haircut looks awesome! Very fresh and flattering in my opinion.

    Sometimes I wonder how it’s possible to miss people that I’ve never met before. If I go too long without reading blogs, I truly miss my blog friends. 🙂

  3. Shelley Tully says:

    I never decide if I like a hair cut (or style) till I get home and style it myself 😉 I think it’s cute.

  4. i LOVE the haircut! It’s so cute. But i know what you mean, i recently cut mine and today I just stared at it and thought about how much i hate the length…then i put it in a ponytail and moved on 🙂 i also wonder about the word verifications!!

  5. I feel the same way about family reading my blog. I wonder if they think it’s too self absorbed or strange to be sharing my thoughts to the world. But usually right after I think that I realize all the positive things about blogging and stop myself from worrying so much about what others think.
    And I’ll add to your list I wonder when I’m going to start my own family….

  6. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever get to know what it feels like to be pregnant. That sounds kind of depressing but I’m the only one of my friends who isn’t…and just wonder when/if it will happen…

  7. Lee says:

    Most of my friends know about my blog but I think only a few read it regularly. I am a pretty open person so I don’t think that anything that I write about is anything I wouldn’t talk to them about. However, my parents do not know about the blog and it’s because I don’t want them to know about not so great stuff that happens in my life.

    • Tina says:

      I’m a pretty open person too and would readily discuss anything I share here with friends and family. It just doesn’t come up! LOL

  8. My family and frends do read my blog, which sometimes keeps me from writing certain things. Partly because I’m a private person, but also because I don’t want to have to verbal talk about certain subject over dinner or a visit home.
    Does that make any sense?

    So I wonder…why I worry so much.

  9. I like your haircut. Very cute.
    I started my blog at first for only friends and family, so yes, they are readers. It doesn’t really weird me out, but that is probably because most of my posts are recipe-based and not all that personal. I have gotten personal in a few posts and it was a strange feeling so I know what you are saying.

  10. Natalie says:

    I always wonder if people I know have read my blog already “heard” what I’ve just told them! I haven’t gotten super personal with my posts, but I’m sure I will eventually, and I am not sure how that will feel when I know personal friends/family read! I love your candidness and honesty 🙂 That’s why I keep reading!

  11. I remember when I was pregnant with my second daughter getting very emotional towards the end of the pregnancy knowing those were the last days I had alone with my 1st daughter. It was very bittersweet. Once baby #2 was home it was as if we were always together!! Lots of luck to you and your family!

  12. chelsey says:

    Such a cute post – I sometimes wonder if my family/friends think I’m a freakazoid (yes, techincal term) for the things I write too!

  13. julie says:

    i don’t think M will EVER stop thinking you’re the most amazing person ever! i think my mom is and i’m 24 years old haha 🙂

  14. kate says:

    This is such a great post! Sometimes I wonder if Ill ever convince my boyfriend to move out of Iowa. I hope so!

  15. lindsay says:

    lovely! You look lovely! I wonder how my husband puts up with me sometimes, haha. Okay, well he’s suppose to and then I wonder how I got so lucky. Enjoy your wonders friend!

  16. ashleigh says:

    After so my unsatisfying haircuts, I just decided to grow it very long and now I love it.

    Very few people I know in real life read my blog. For some reason I don’t know how to mention it to my parents.

  17. Aww the thing about M was so sweet. You’ll always be #1 but I know what you mean. I remember when I got to be a teen and how I used to be so embarrassed by my mom. I feel so bad now for being such a jerk during those years!!

    I think your hair looks really cute BTW!

  18. I love posts like these..they provide so much insight and realness to the person behind the blog.

    Some of my family reads my blog and I think they also wonder why I don’t share so much in real conversations. Sometimes it’s easier to just write it out..and sometimes the blog community is just more supportive 😉

  19. I was going to suggest some choppy layers to give it a little more volume but guess that didn’t work 🙁 If all else fails, the prenatal vitamins help your hair and nails grow faster yes?

    I have some friends who read it but a lot of people have no clue I have a blog. The ones who do read it, check in every now and then, I don’t think they read it every day.

  20. Kat says:

    I do have non-blogging family and friends who read. I just love it! Sometimes I worry that maybe I share too much, but I think True Honesty is what makes blogging and reading the words of others worth it.

  21. My parents read my blog and they have gotten used to me taking pictures of my food. Haha. 😉

    It’s funny, today my dad called my mom to make sure I was okay after reading on my blog that I was frustrated.;)

  22. Gina says:

    Such a cute haircut 🙂
    I frequently wonder where I’ll end up after I graduate from college!

  23. I like your haircut! It is always better when styled ourselves! Stylists have a different view on things? I am not sure I’ve ever had a hairstyle I loved 100 percent … yet my husband has pretty much had the same haircut for all 28 years of his life. (OK maybe not as a newborn …)

  24. Meg says:

    I actually think your haircut looks cute! If you’re anything like me, I dislike the initial change and then get used to it. It usually helps when you style it the way you like.

    Sometimes I wonder if I’m doing enough for other people. I know it sounds corny, but seeing the hurt people experience just makes me want to heal the whole world. 🙂

    • Tina says:

      I feel the same way too a lot. I wonder if I could do more for others and want to find new ways to serve and things. But then I have to remember God doesn’t want us to overextend ourselves either to lose the joy of serving others. We each have our own ways to touch lives and we have to do what we can.

  25. Tina, I think the haircut looks wonderful! REALLY! I’m not just saying that to be nice…Promise. 🙂 I often feel the same way after cutting mine too…It always takes awhile to get used to a new look.

    I post my blog posts to Facebook, and know that many of my friends and family read what I write. I love that they’ve learned more about me through my blog, but occasionally find that I have to sensor thoughts and feelings that I’d like to share if they involve friendships/relationships.

    Sometimes I wonder…when/if I’ll meet Mr. Right, and when/if I’ll get married! (So cliche for a 20-something girl, right?!) 🙂

  26. MsBabyPlan says:

    Very nice post.

    I family don’t know about my blog – just one of my sister-inlaw, my sister and my Hubby, but they don’t talk about what I write on my blog. I am quite personal on the blog and I want to be like that because I started the blog as a platform on which I can release stress during the journey towards motherhood.

    Sometimes I wonder if I will ever become preggo. And if my body will change drastically after baby or if I will become depress after giving birth.

    I’ll cross the bridge when the time comes!

    Happy Holidays!

  27. Jen says:

    I think your haircut looks cute! M will always think you are amazing, because you are!!!


  28. Heather says:

    OMG, I wonder the same thing about my son!! I’m terrified of the day he doesn’t think I’m the smartest, prettiest, best mom ever. 🙂
    I also wonder what I would do with my free time if I didn’t work a “real job” in addition to teaching at the gym and being a running coach. Ahhhhhhhh……..that would be heaven……
    Have a great day!

  29. M will never stop thinking you are the most amazing person, I still feel that way about my mom at 26.

    I like your hair! It’s not that short! 🙂

  30. Anne Marie says:

    The same thing happens to me CONSTANTLY with the hair thing. I either get stuck in the same cut or it gets cut too short. I might turn to hair dye today 🙂

  31. Jess says:

    LOVE IT!!! I’m so glad my rambling “sometimes I wonder” post inspired you to create your own! I honestly don’t know where the concept came from, it literally popped into my head on the way to work that day and poof! There’s my blog post 🙂 thanks for the bloggy love friend! I love your list!!!

  32. Cute post!!

    Sometimes I wonder why it took my 27 years to get comfortable in my own skin. But at least I’m here now 🙂

  33. Sometimes I wonder why I didn’t get into health and fitness pre kids??? I had so much more time on my hands to workout and cook!

    And I am always like that after a haircut, it looks super cute!!! And it looks easy to maintain too!

  34. Tatianna says:

    No stretch marks?! You must have amazing skin 🙂 I have some stretch marks just from growing too quickly as a teen !

  35. I like the haircut, I wish mine were that length, but I’ve been growing it out for a while. Just got bangs cut last week and they look too short in the pictures, ugh!!!

    I always wonder about the future…so many questions about my future.

    A few of my family members read my blog and it doesn’t weird me out. That’s one of the reasons I started it is for them to keep up with the things I am making and doing. I wish more of my family members realized how much work I put in to my blog and then maybe they’d read it, appreciate it and acknowledge it, but they don’t.

  36. Lisa Fine says:

    Love your haircut, and hearing about your wonderments.

    I wonder a lot about the economy, and the state of the world. As someone who’s unemployed I keep hoping things will get better, but I often feel uncertain about it.

    I have lots of friends who read my blog, which I think is fun.

    • Tina says:

      I think its fun too. I more wonder if its weird for them than weird for me…but then I guess they wouldn’t read if it was weird. I’m an open book and they just have to deal. 😉

      I can imagine how stressful that can be to worry about. Uncertainties of the future are a tough one for me. Hopefully things turn around with work for you soon.

  37. Nic says:

    I like your haircut! I bet you’ll like it as well once you style it, that’s what always happens with me!

    I wonder if I’ll ever really, really, like my job or if I’m just passing the time here until I can find something better… it’s a major downer to spend most of the day at a job that doesn’t quite work. But at this point in the game, I’m just happy to have a job!

  38. Krystal says:

    weren’t you wearing that shirt in the photo that set you off last time? i think you just don’t like that shirt on yourself! 🙂

    you’re gorgeous, and your hair looks fine. play with it. but then again, whenever i change my hair up, i hate it, so what do i know!

    Have a Merry Christmas sweetheart!

  39. Jolene says:

    What a great post! For the record, your hair looks great! You are doing amazing!!

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