completely irresponsible
Posted: October 18, 2010 at 8:54 amYesterday I was completely irresponsible. In every way imaginable. You should be ashamed to call me a friend.
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I was an irresponsible mother. I ignored my daughter all day in order to stay in bed and watch an entire season of Friends on DVD. Little M told me she hated me and disowns me as her mother last night. How sad.
I was an irresponsible Christian. I didn’t go to church so I could sleep in. My friends in Sunday School all emailed me to tell me they have now lost their way because I wasn’t there to lead class. God warned me that he almost zapped me with lightning because being in church every Sunday is what us religious folk should do. And following “the rules” is what being a Christian is all about don’t you know. Faith, grace, mercy, peace, and love don’t mean a thing obviously.
I was an irresponsible fitness enthusiast. I had plenty of time to get in a workout yesterday, but opted to sleep for an extra 5 or 6 hours off and on throughout the day instead.
I was an irresponsible friend. I skipped one of my friend’s kiddo’s birthday parties even though she came to M’s just the day before. What can I say? I was selfish and wanted to keep the gift I woke up with all to myself. I didn’t want to share it with those kids and her family. It was MINE!
I was an irresponsible pregnant woman. I took medicine. The horrors! I have now poisoned my baby with that Tylenol. Little B’s growth shall forever be stunted.
I was an irresponsible blogger. I didn’t take a single photo yesterday. I didn’t post a single word. I didn’t reply to comments or think about visiting other blogs. My blog shall now shut down. What was I thinking to take a day off? I will have lost numerous readers and subscribers from that decision. After all, wouldn’t I have been smarter to put up a post saying “I’m Sick! Be back later! The end.” than to ignore my computer? Shame on me and my so-called blogger status! May I now grovel at your feet to beg you to keep reading this little ole blog. And then how dare I sleep in this morning and leave you with this craptastic post?! I guess I should have hired little M to fill in, huh?
**Disclaimer: I sincerely hope you read all of the above with a sense of sarcasm in mind.** If you haven’t figured it out already, I woke up incredibly ill yesterday. I could. not. move! I had chills, body aches, an intense headache, a throat so constricted and burning I could not speak, and waves of nausea thinking I was in the mood for surfing them all day long. So I took a day off to rest up and hopefully feel better by today, which I do. Thank goodness too. You all know how I feel about Mondays!
I can honestly say I feel better because I allowed myself the time to just chill and soak up the care from my husband and the freedom to laze all day. I gave myself freedom from the expectations I place on myself and the need I feel to constantly work hard to improve as a mother, wife, blogger, friend, in my faith, etc. I can place high standards on myself and I know that. Sometimes, however, we have to simply say “Forget it!” and live with it.
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I actually felt proud of myself for doing so yesterday. I didn’t forge on to keep from feeling like I let others down. I didn’t toss up a post because, while it may work for others, I prefer to share things I genuinely want to share and not write for the sake of writing. Even if that drops my page views for the day or subscribers for the week. I knew trying to play super mom despite illness would only have left me unable to mother and love my child for at least an extra day or two. I may not be 100% today, but at least I function. And the world didn’t stop turning without me. What a shocker! 😉
- I hope you all had FANTABULOUS weekends. What did you do?
- Do you ever put pressure on yourself to keep going or do something for the sake of it, even though its not necessary?
Tags: listen to your body
i used to always force myself past my comfort zone. in fact life felt more like something I HAD TO ENDURE than enjoy. only recently have i been able to switch it around and allow myself to just NOT do what i didnt want to ..or if need be, find a way i can enjoy it without it feeling like something draining/tiresome. its made a HUGE difference in my life and my happiness <3
I hope you’re feeling better T! I came down with something this weekend too and I’m hoping it goes away ASAP! I used to always make myself workout even when I didn’t want to. I don’t do that anymore!
Loved this post. I chuckled at each irresponsibility! Especially the Tylenol one lol. Rest is so important and though it’s hard to do sometimes, it’s just as important as fitness! I hope you feel better soon!!
Oh, no – I hope you are feeling better, Tina! Hopefully you got the much needed rest you deserve. Whew, what a weekend. Okay, you deserve rest AND a massage…..or somethin’!
Good for you, Tina! And I can watch an entire season(s) of Friends–sick or not–very easily. 🙂 If Our Dog Buffy hadn’t chewed most of the series when she was a pup. 🙁 I still haven’t replaced the discs … One day. Glad you are feeling better. I just love how REAL you are! I ate too many peanut M&Ms and too many Natural Reduced Fat Ruffles chips. But I will go work off my booty and I am real too. Oh and I love “poodleheads” from a previous post. And wow, that party! That’s a lot of people! Brave woman! You get a sticker 🙂
Tina, I really LOVED this post that you wrote. I think that you did all of the right things for yourself & your body. It sounded like it was craving some rest & of course some time to watch Friends 😉 Probably one of the best shows ever!!
I’m glad you are feeling a bit better today! Continue to get well!!
Sometimes we just get so wrapped up in being “available” and “involved” that we forget how important it is to just do NOTHING every once in awhile!
Oh my. That puppy picture is adorable!
Stress and pressure. One day, I’ll be free of both. I just hope it’s before I’m too old to enjoy the feeling.
Glad you allowed yourself time to rest and relax! It’s always important to give yourself time especially when you’re pregnant. (I am assuming since I haven’t ever been pregnant.)
I’m so glad I found your blog! You ALWAYS make me smile!