gone missing
Posted: October 27, 2010 at 6:31 pmSeeing as the most exciting parts of my day included a one hour nap and a cry from pain in the shower, I don’t have much to say. I couldn’t muster much more energy after that shower. Darn personal hygiene and social decorum to look presentable at church tonight. For that reason, this post will be short and sweet. I know you all are likely sick of hearing the ailments of this pregnancy. Believe me, so am I. But that’s all I got for a post right now. A need to vent. Please forgive me as I wax poetic about this once again. I promise it will be the last time…for at least a good while.
I miss my cheer and energy. I hate feeling lazy. I hate being grumpy and I know it has happened more often than normal the past 7 months.
I miss my “happy place” body. Yea, I said it. I don’t feel poorly about how I look right now. I don’t analyze my size or bemoan extra softness. I still feel beautiful. I just miss feeling fit and having the ability to do things I can do in that non-pregnant, back in the strong workouts body.(And I can’t believe how small she was only a bit over a year ago!)
I miss wine. ‘Nough said.
I miss sushi. ‘Nough said. Well, besides that Peter will be brining me some for dinner sometime after delivery. Yes, in the hospital. I wonder if they will allow him to bring in some wine too? Hmmmm…..
I miss sleep. Yea yea yea. I won’t get much following the birth with a newborn. But at least the sleep I do get will feel comfortable. Stomach sleep, how I miss you.
I miss smaller boobs. Yea yea yea. Those will get bigger for awhile afterwards too thanks to nursing. But at least there will be an end in sight.
I miss not knowing what sciatic pain was. Oh, dear heavens, ignorance really is bliss when it comes to that.
I miss craving healthy food. I still eat it, and ultimately enjoy it, but I don’t love it. I miss loving it!
I miss pain medicine. I don’t take it very often, but when I do I usually need something stronger. Tylenol just does not work for me.
I miss control of my bladder. Going to the bathroom one zillion times a day and having to take care when sneezing, laughing, or coughing gets old real fast.
I miss my mind. I forget things so easily. I lost a flip flop today. I still have no clue where that sucker went. I had them both on when I sat down on the couch, then one when I stood up. How? How?!
I miss the freedom to be me. Plain and simple. I miss being me.
- What would be the hardest thing for you to deal with for 9 months?
- Don’t forget to ASK ME ANYTHING for the Q + A series in November!
Tags: pregnancy
I think the hardest part would be having to go to the bathroom all the time. I already have a small bladder!
I know the end is in sight and you can’t wait. Feel better soon! But I guess you won’t feel totally better until you have the baby, huh? 🙂
You’re right on the money. A lot of it I just have to cope with for another 2.5 months. Oh, joy. LOL
I know its all worth it though and that does help, especially knowing the emotions we felt with trying to conceive.
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Not sleeping comfortably, especially on my belly was tough. The extra weight on my small frame started taking a toll towards the end! I feel your pain sister!!
I am glad you were able to express yourself! Sorry there is so much you miss, but you and I both know somewhere deep down you love every minute of it. Hang in there, the finish line is in sight!!
I bet you don’t miss wondering if you’d have any trouble getting pregnant with your second:)
I have missed living in Michigan getting snow, maybe not 9 months, lol.
bladder, sushi, and wine. I would miss those! But youre on the down slope now, right? I sure hope so. 🙂
Happy pushing!
I’m in the 3rd trimester, so getting closer. I still have about 2.5 more months though.
Oh, Tina…I’m so sorry you feel so crummy. 🙁 I’ve obviously never been pregnant before so I have no idea how difficult it is, only from what I’ve heard. I think, honestly, everything you’ve listed would be SO hard for me, too! (I think sleep and bladder control would top the list for me, though). 😉
At least you are in the home stretch now….and as they say (or as I’m told, at least!), once you are holding that baby in your arms, all of this will just be a big blur, and you will only feel the love for that sweet baby boy!