I have had this blog for just shy of a year and a half. Kind of crazy to think! I have written almost 900 posts and definitely given my fair share of photos and words. The blog captures so much that I can go back and find with a simple search – including things I don’t anticipate finding.

When writing my post for this morning, I needed a “hissy fit” image to go along with my post. Instead of scouring files on my computer or trying to get a useful hit from WordPress’ crappy search, I went to trusty ole Google for a site search. Basically – enter site:blahblahblah.com and the topic you’re searching in the bar to get more effective results. It works for me at least! Plus, when I search “site:faithfitnessfun.com hissy fit” for images, I end up with a whole plethora of other memories and pictures.

Instead of getting wordy, I’ll let the pictures do the talking this afternoon as we take a walk down FFF memory lane. 🙂

First Big Feature

Still remember how surreal it felt to open up Fitness Magazine and see myself!

Oh, Yea…I Used To Be Blonde!  

 
Good thing I decided to dye my hair back to my natural color, don’t you think?

Halloween Bark

Images like this almost make me ready to part with summer and say hello to fall.

Subliminal Messaging

Apparently I needed an extra hint after my recent dose of crazy.

The Pregnant Body Shot

5 months pregnant. Body shot from the belly. Yea…you will have to read that one if you missed it.

2 Years Ago I Began Training For THIS…

And while I’m glad I completed that goal, I have absolutely NO desire for another fitness competition.

Bahahahaha!!!! There Are No Words 

I don’t remember the reasoning behind this one but oh what a gem to find!  

Ummmm????

Oh, yea! The whole tic on the hoo-ha story!

The Special Sex Cake

No! Not that kind of sex! The cake I made with the inside dyed blue to tell my family that we were having a boy. So much fun. I love the surprise on their faces.

Oh, Baby!!!

I forgot about that belly!!!! But worth it for the next picture…

Still Melts My Heart

Oh. Couldn’t you just stare at that cuteness ALL DAY?!

• How often do you go back and look at old pictures? What about old posts if you blog?

People sometimes say something to me that makes me want to laugh. “How do you always have it so together?” I want to laugh because, quite simply, I don’t. Much of the time, I do feel balanced and like I have life relatively in order. I do my best by focusing on the following actions:

I turn to prayer to keep perspective and peace. I schedule and set up routines to keep things moving as seamlessly as possible in day-to-day life with small children. Timers are my new best friend to help me stay focused on tasks at hand and remain productive so I don’t waste my all too precious time. I make regular time for my own personal interests and activities as often as possible.

Despite all those things, I certainly still have my moments where “having it all together” could not even remotely describe how I feel. The past few days included. Over the past 72 hours I cried countless times. Before finally getting a solid eight hours last night (thank God!), I slept maybe 5 or 6 hours total. I teetered on the verge of three panic attacks. I screamed into one pillow, dealt with a three-day non-stop headache, and wished I could throw a hissy fit like Makenzie.

Check out the old school Makenzie shot!

The most trivial of scenarios and “issues” sent tears streaming down my face – my phone screen going completely dead (hence the iPhone), grocery shopping, not being able to wear a dress to church because I was scheduled to work the nursery, random songs on the radio, and other things so unimportant I can’t even remember right now. This would promptly cause me to freak out and start crying all over again because I felt so ridiculous, then guilty for getting upset over nonsensical things when others clearly handle way more than myself. Lastly, while my mom has improved since her last relapse, something about her MS diagnosis digs at my heart harder these days on top of all the other mental I felt.

Oddly, I didn’t feel bogged down with any one thing. I still felt like I had my schedule well balanced and got things taken care of adequately. Yet, I ended up in that overwhelmed and frenzied state. The epitome of not “having it all together”. Why? The best I can come up with is that I needed to feel connected, appreciated, and like there was something more. After a week of taking care of the day in and day out details, I always look forward to having the weekend to recharge by getting more quality time with my husband, fitting in some form of activity for purely pleasure, and enjoying a little more freedom from the standard fare of everyday life.

I mentioned this weekend feeling rather dull. I don’t mind dull. I own up to the fact I don’t live some extravagant lifestyle and honestly wouldn’t want one anyways. I love my life. However, when the days go on and on like a never-ending highway without any change in scenery, life permeates my attitude with this want-to-rip-my-hair-out sensation. It wasn’t anyone’s fault. Sometimes life has “to-dos” that need to get done, budgets that don’t allow weekly date nights out or fun adventures, children that scrap the chance of a leisurely do-nothing day or napping when the mood strikes. It’s not bad at all. It can, though, sometimes wear on the mind, body, and soul.

I’m human and life wore on my mind, body, and soul recently. I feel immensely better today after a full night’s sleep, making a point to relax instead of study personal training material last night, and planning for a date night this weekend. I wrote about all of this because I want to show I certainly don’t have it all together.

We all have our spaz moments. We all have things we would like to work on. We all want to punch a pillow sometimes, even over the silliest “problems”. Don’t ever think anyone has it all together. And especially don’t ever allow it to cause doubt on the management of your own life. Otherwise you may find yourself crying over something even crazier than not wearing a dress to church. 😉

• What is the silliest thing you can remember getting upset about?
• How do you recharge so life doesn’t get you down?